Hi everybody
Hope all your Christmas' were great!!! I was surprised when I pulled up the blog--Josh changed it--I like it! And yes, I know Meg--I need more pics. Sorry. I did try to take a picture of my enlarged belly, but it didn't work to well so I have to get Josh to take it for me. ( I officially had to start wearing maternity jeans this past weekend--I had to go to Goodwill to get a pair b/c the ones I had are still too big! But I found 2 nice pairs that fit right now).
Guess what??? I felt Adyson move this morning!!! The storm knocked power out last night and I heard Josh looking at his watch on the nightstand and rolled onto my back (I've been trying to be good and sleep on my left side :o) As I was laying there I felt a bump, bump and then another bump, bump. I know it wasn't my stomach growling--I think Ady just didn't want to wake up and was rolling over to go back to sleep. But I was psyched--my baby is moving!!!! I reached over and smacked Josh cuz I was all excited--he was like "that's great--it's 5:30 I'm going back to sleep" Ok, he didn't SAY that, but I know my husband. He's more excited about it this afternoon though :o) So for right now, our baby's still kicking (literally). And she's got good genes--they told Josh he probably wouldn't make it either--and he's doing fine.
Well that's it for now. I go in for my next Dr's apt on the 3rd, so we'll see what he says about when to get my next ultrasound. Talk to you all later.
Sarah
PS If you post a comment and it doesn't post right away, wait a few days--Josh has to check his email and "approve" them before they show up!!
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
New Name for Christmas...
Hi everybody!!!
Merry Christmas!!!! (one day early :O)
Well, we went back and forth and back and forth but we finally settled on a name. Her name is Adyson Celeste. Meaning losely, "Child of Earth, Gift of Heaven". For short we'll call her Ady.
Josh and I had our Christmas this AM, and we were going to have Christmas at my in-laws tonight, but it'll have to be late b/c they called Josh at 3:30 and said "be here at 4:30". But at least he's at the gate that closes at 8:30 so he'll be back about 9 to open presents. Yesterday they also called him at 3 and told him to be there at 4, so we waited till this morning to open presents. Oh well--holiday pay is good!!!
So that's it for now. I'll talk to you all later!!!
Sarah
Merry Christmas!!!! (one day early :O)
Well, we went back and forth and back and forth but we finally settled on a name. Her name is Adyson Celeste. Meaning losely, "Child of Earth, Gift of Heaven". For short we'll call her Ady.
Josh and I had our Christmas this AM, and we were going to have Christmas at my in-laws tonight, but it'll have to be late b/c they called Josh at 3:30 and said "be here at 4:30". But at least he's at the gate that closes at 8:30 so he'll be back about 9 to open presents. Yesterday they also called him at 3 and told him to be there at 4, so we waited till this morning to open presents. Oh well--holiday pay is good!!!
So that's it for now. I'll talk to you all later!!!
Sarah
Friday, December 21, 2007
God's Strength and Peace...
Well, the last few days have been really rough, but we seem to be managing.God truly has blessed us!! I know all the prayers are working b/c I can feel God's arms around me and hear His voice saying "I am in control, nothing happens that I don't allow. I am with you--and your precious child also." Not to say that I still am not crying alot--I picked up the ultrasound pictures from the clinic--there's a really cute one of her hand, and I started crying. And when I was at Wal-Mart picking up a scrapbook to start for our little girl, I walked past the baby clothes and yup, you guessed it, started crying. I almost felt foolish walking through Wal-mart with tears in my eyes, but I guess there is a time for everything under the sun--including crying!!
But then there are the times of peace--when I walked Kyylyn (my dog) around the lake and it was a beautiful blue sky and everything was fresh after the rain last night. I could cry out to God and feel His presence, love and hope as I walked. I know there are people that have a peace that their child will be fine--I can't say I have that, but I definitely have a peace that WE will be fine--no matter what happens. (But I will keep praying for a miracle!) I went to the library to pick out books to read to my baby--and one of the first ones laying out was entitled "God Made Me Special". It was a great reminder that He made our baby "special" and she is "fearfully and wonderfully made", no matter her problems, and she is precious to Him, and to us.
I don't know how to thank everyone for their prayers and support--even people we have never met--but THANK YOU!!!! And thanks Ash, for your encouragement--and for her many "blogging" friends, especially the different stories of hope that they have.
Josh has now finished his classes and is officially starting his new job as security guard on Ft. Rucker tomorrow. That will be a huge blessing. It is "part time" for 3 months and then they are usually offered a full time position. I put part time in quotes b/c they are only scheduled for part time, but if anyone doesn't show up, then they are the ones that are called and part timers generally end up getting about 35-40 hours a week. That puts a damper on any plans we make for the next 3 months since Josh will be on-call 24/7; but God knows we need the money (especially since we may very well have many more medical bills coming in the near future) and as I heard my dad say once "when you pray for money, sometimes you get a check in the mail, but more often than not, you're provided with overtime!!" We've gotten the check (several actually--and cash too!) and now we are getting the OT. God is good :o) This job has benefits but still doesn't have health insurance, but they pay an extra $3 an hour for you to get your own. So hopefully I will be able to get some and while they most likely won't cover me right now(or any bills having to do with the pregnancy), at least if God sees fit to heal the baby and she comes and needs medical attention, she will be covered.
So that's it for now--keep us in your prayers as we learn to deal with the "wait and see" part of this. But at least we can "wait on the Lord" and He will give us strength to "mount up on wings as eagles". We praise God for His mercy and His strength--and for praying family and friends. Again, thank you.
But then there are the times of peace--when I walked Kyylyn (my dog) around the lake and it was a beautiful blue sky and everything was fresh after the rain last night. I could cry out to God and feel His presence, love and hope as I walked. I know there are people that have a peace that their child will be fine--I can't say I have that, but I definitely have a peace that WE will be fine--no matter what happens. (But I will keep praying for a miracle!) I went to the library to pick out books to read to my baby--and one of the first ones laying out was entitled "God Made Me Special". It was a great reminder that He made our baby "special" and she is "fearfully and wonderfully made", no matter her problems, and she is precious to Him, and to us.
I don't know how to thank everyone for their prayers and support--even people we have never met--but THANK YOU!!!! And thanks Ash, for your encouragement--and for her many "blogging" friends, especially the different stories of hope that they have.
Josh has now finished his classes and is officially starting his new job as security guard on Ft. Rucker tomorrow. That will be a huge blessing. It is "part time" for 3 months and then they are usually offered a full time position. I put part time in quotes b/c they are only scheduled for part time, but if anyone doesn't show up, then they are the ones that are called and part timers generally end up getting about 35-40 hours a week. That puts a damper on any plans we make for the next 3 months since Josh will be on-call 24/7; but God knows we need the money (especially since we may very well have many more medical bills coming in the near future) and as I heard my dad say once "when you pray for money, sometimes you get a check in the mail, but more often than not, you're provided with overtime!!" We've gotten the check (several actually--and cash too!) and now we are getting the OT. God is good :o) This job has benefits but still doesn't have health insurance, but they pay an extra $3 an hour for you to get your own. So hopefully I will be able to get some and while they most likely won't cover me right now(or any bills having to do with the pregnancy), at least if God sees fit to heal the baby and she comes and needs medical attention, she will be covered.
So that's it for now--keep us in your prayers as we learn to deal with the "wait and see" part of this. But at least we can "wait on the Lord" and He will give us strength to "mount up on wings as eagles". We praise God for His mercy and His strength--and for praying family and friends. Again, thank you.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
God's will...
"All things work together for good." Romans 8:28a.
People like to quote that verse when things "go wrong". Some people see it as everything that happens will be good. But most people forgot to quote the rest of the verse.
"All things work together for good to them that love God and are called according to HIS purpose." Whose purpose? I know what most people's "purpose" is--and I’ve been guilty too, wanting it easy and life to go good. And sometimes it is, but what do we learn in that? What is God's purpose in our lives? Again, we have to keep reading: "For whom He foreknew, he also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son." Wow, what a high calling. To be like Christ--and trials, if we let them, will help us to this end. Why am I saying all this? Well, for those of you who don't know yet (or got the tearful 1/2 version that I could barely choke out), here's the scoop.
We're having a girl!!! (We’re going to choose a name tonight). For Christmas presents for our parents, we got my ultrasound moved up two weeks (Tues the 18th-on my 18th week of pregnancy) and we were hoping to put the ultrasound picture in either a pink or blue frame and give it to them for a surprise (and no it was not easy keeping that a secret from future grandparents that I see everyday!!). Well, the tech did the ultrasound (didn't really say anything), left for 20 minutes and came back for about 2 minutes before the Dr came in. He sat down, and as gently as he could, told me something was wrong. There was what appeared to be a cyst at the base of the skull, and the spinal cord appeared to be growing outside of the spinal column, and that there was a very, very good possibility of major birth defects--possible fatal, and they wanted to send me to a specialist in Birmingham the next day. It took a minute to register before the tears came. I drove back to work almost in shock, and then lost it at work telling them I wouldn't be in the next day. Josh was in class and unreachable, so I called my mother-in-law and through lots of tears and "what?", "slow down", "repeat that" and "don't panic yet", I got my story of the botched Christmas present across. So yesterday, the two of us took the long trip to Birmingham (3 hours one way) to see the specialist.
They did an ultrasound, lots of measurements and then dropped the bombshell. He was very suspicious of Turner's Syndrome (not 100% but 99% sure); that is a chromosome problem--generally an extra one (or 1 1/2, 1 1/4 etc), and can vary from mild to severe. The "cyst" that Dr. Pollard had seen was actually what's called a cystic hygroma (CH)--that is fluid around the brain and in the neck. Apparently her little lymphatic system isn't working right and so instead of putting the fluid back into the bloodstream, it lets it leak wherever it can go. In our baby's case, around the brain, neck, spinal cord and abdomen. I'm not real experienced with ultrasound, but I can see more than most people thanks to Dr. Candace and Dr. Ralph, and from what I could see, it was bad. According to the Dr., there is a very, very good chance of miscarriage and a very slim possibility for a full term baby, BUT if she makes it that long, he was doubtful that she would live more than a day or two.
SO, needless to say, it was a very long, tearful ride home. While it is a "genetic" problem, it is not our genetics that are the problem--neither Josh or I are a carrier and none of our future children will be anymore at risk than this one was (~1in 25,000); According to the dr, 3 in 100 pregnancy's have very bad and/or fatal birth defects and we are one of the 3. Also in the Dr's words--"it's just a fluke thing". No, not a fluke. God has a plan and He made her perfect according to His will. Why? I have no idea, but it is His will. But I also know, she is not dead yet, and God can do miracles and can fix her little body and make her perfectly normal, or special needs, but alive. However, I know He can also choose to take her home at anytime. Not what I want to happen, but I guess we will accept what God brings our way.
So, all that said. Pray for us--for strength and wisdom. We very well might just be getting over and accepting this news when we lose her and have to go through this again. So keep us in your prayers. It will be a tough Christmas but we "can do all things through Christ who strengthens" us. And if God decides to take our precious child home, we can try to follow King David's example--pray fervently for God to heal the child, but if he takes her home, weep and then--rejoice!! We will meet her in heaven--maybe for the first time and she will have a healthy, glorified and perfect body. And she will have already been in the arms of our great Savior, Jesus Christ.
People like to quote that verse when things "go wrong". Some people see it as everything that happens will be good. But most people forgot to quote the rest of the verse.
"All things work together for good to them that love God and are called according to HIS purpose." Whose purpose? I know what most people's "purpose" is--and I’ve been guilty too, wanting it easy and life to go good. And sometimes it is, but what do we learn in that? What is God's purpose in our lives? Again, we have to keep reading: "For whom He foreknew, he also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son." Wow, what a high calling. To be like Christ--and trials, if we let them, will help us to this end. Why am I saying all this? Well, for those of you who don't know yet (or got the tearful 1/2 version that I could barely choke out), here's the scoop.
We're having a girl!!! (We’re going to choose a name tonight). For Christmas presents for our parents, we got my ultrasound moved up two weeks (Tues the 18th-on my 18th week of pregnancy) and we were hoping to put the ultrasound picture in either a pink or blue frame and give it to them for a surprise (and no it was not easy keeping that a secret from future grandparents that I see everyday!!). Well, the tech did the ultrasound (didn't really say anything), left for 20 minutes and came back for about 2 minutes before the Dr came in. He sat down, and as gently as he could, told me something was wrong. There was what appeared to be a cyst at the base of the skull, and the spinal cord appeared to be growing outside of the spinal column, and that there was a very, very good possibility of major birth defects--possible fatal, and they wanted to send me to a specialist in Birmingham the next day. It took a minute to register before the tears came. I drove back to work almost in shock, and then lost it at work telling them I wouldn't be in the next day. Josh was in class and unreachable, so I called my mother-in-law and through lots of tears and "what?", "slow down", "repeat that" and "don't panic yet", I got my story of the botched Christmas present across. So yesterday, the two of us took the long trip to Birmingham (3 hours one way) to see the specialist.
They did an ultrasound, lots of measurements and then dropped the bombshell. He was very suspicious of Turner's Syndrome (not 100% but 99% sure); that is a chromosome problem--generally an extra one (or 1 1/2, 1 1/4 etc), and can vary from mild to severe. The "cyst" that Dr. Pollard had seen was actually what's called a cystic hygroma (CH)--that is fluid around the brain and in the neck. Apparently her little lymphatic system isn't working right and so instead of putting the fluid back into the bloodstream, it lets it leak wherever it can go. In our baby's case, around the brain, neck, spinal cord and abdomen. I'm not real experienced with ultrasound, but I can see more than most people thanks to Dr. Candace and Dr. Ralph, and from what I could see, it was bad. According to the Dr., there is a very, very good chance of miscarriage and a very slim possibility for a full term baby, BUT if she makes it that long, he was doubtful that she would live more than a day or two.
SO, needless to say, it was a very long, tearful ride home. While it is a "genetic" problem, it is not our genetics that are the problem--neither Josh or I are a carrier and none of our future children will be anymore at risk than this one was (~1in 25,000); According to the dr, 3 in 100 pregnancy's have very bad and/or fatal birth defects and we are one of the 3. Also in the Dr's words--"it's just a fluke thing". No, not a fluke. God has a plan and He made her perfect according to His will. Why? I have no idea, but it is His will. But I also know, she is not dead yet, and God can do miracles and can fix her little body and make her perfectly normal, or special needs, but alive. However, I know He can also choose to take her home at anytime. Not what I want to happen, but I guess we will accept what God brings our way.
So, all that said. Pray for us--for strength and wisdom. We very well might just be getting over and accepting this news when we lose her and have to go through this again. So keep us in your prayers. It will be a tough Christmas but we "can do all things through Christ who strengthens" us. And if God decides to take our precious child home, we can try to follow King David's example--pray fervently for God to heal the child, but if he takes her home, weep and then--rejoice!! We will meet her in heaven--maybe for the first time and she will have a healthy, glorified and perfect body. And she will have already been in the arms of our great Savior, Jesus Christ.
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